Category: Musings

  • Why I Hate My Birthday

    Why I Hate My Birthday

    For as long as I can remember I have hated my birthday. Most memories of past birthdays are marked by disappointment, sadness, loneliness, and the lingering question of “Why bother?” From as far back as my teenage years all I can remember is the rejection I felt after inviting the people I thought were friends…

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  • Am I Having Midlife Crisis

    Am I Having Midlife Crisis

    Ever since last year I have felt this sense of something. I don’t know if it’s been a sense of impending doom or a sense of being on the horizon of great things. The best way I know to describe this feeling is to say that I feel like a small boat. A small boat…

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  • Another Breakup, Another Blog Post

    Another Breakup, Another Blog Post

    As I pull myself through another romantic breakup, I keep coming back to the same thoughts and questions. Am I holding myself accountable for things I didn’t do? I have been hyper-focused on taking accountability for the happenings in my life because sometimes I am the problem. I’m very receptive to feedback from others who…

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  • 2 Weeks in Cartagena: What I Learned About Myself

    2 Weeks in Cartagena: What I Learned About Myself

     Two weeks in Cartagena taught me just how much my mental illness limits me. So boom, I did my almost annual international birthday trip and decided to really challenge myself this time. After multiple covid infections plus a concussion, I have been worried about cognitive decline and struggling with anything involving memorization and concentration. So…

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  • Are They Really A Healer Or….

    Are They Really A Healer Or….

    This is a cranky, elder millennial rant, so fair warning. There is this thing that I’ve been seeing more and more on social media where a lot of clinical psychology and mental health terminology/ concepts have been adopted and bastardized by people, particularly the New Age spiritual girlies and what I guess you could call…

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